Awakened

The Moment of awakening and self awareness

I have a clear memory of the moment that I became ME as opposed to a random human child just muddling around eating drinking sleeping without and clear focus of self. I dont know how or if this happens to others but for me it was sharp and clear. I was in the old house my mother was born in, and grew up in. We were living there for a time, before we moved up the hill to the house I grew up in. I walked out the front door of the living room sleeping space of the old house and turned left to look at the June apple tree across the drive way to see if there were any apples there . I did not see any apples but just off a bit to the left of the base of the tree sat a Red Fox it raised up on its hind quarters and looked strait at my eyes and I looked back looking it in the eyes and our vision locked… and SNAP like a sharp snapping of the fingers and the person that I am now WOKE up like popping out of a dream in the night and setting up in bed and seeing the real world around you.

I had not been asleep in the normal sense of the word but I was just a random human animal up to that point. Beyond that instant I was a clear and specific person and have remained that person through out the years. The things this person I am experienced I remain clear, all before that was just a random blur. It was a key transition that makes me myself and gives me the connections that are key to fulfilling my existence and building my destiny.. I have often wondered who that fox was how it came to be there and why and how it woke me. I remember it with honor and thankfulness that I am ME and not just some random wandering thing.

Awareness and Connections

It seems that often there are connections to be made in many spaces where people have lived and worked over great stretches of time. I have walked thought the forests over the years and often come upon a spot that feels familiar even if I have never walked there before. You can feel a presence, energy and focus. I have felt this very strongly in come rock shelters I have entered through many years of wandering the hills. Science says that a given energy on a single molecule on earth can be felt by other molecules a billion miles away across the galaxy, If this is so then I think its also reasonable to think that the energy created by human beings might effect the earth and stones around us.

I once walked into a limestone rock shelter and felt a presence there a sense of being and focus. Almost like I had been there a thousand times though I had never been at that specific spot ever before at least in this life time. I looked around and saw where some slabs of stone had long ago falling from the roof of the cave. Two laying near each other near the middle of the over hang. I walked over to the stones and saw that the smaller on was a good size and Hight for setting on while the bigger wider one near it would make a good work surface while setting on the first stone.

I looked down at the space underneath the larger stone. The edge toward the setting stone had a bit of an over hang that created a space underneath it good space for your legs while working on something on the upper surface. And low and behold under that over hang I saw a few Flint Cores and a number of flakes that had been chipped off those cores or others scattered under that edge . The stone was as the rest of the cave Limestone so the flint had to have been carried there from other locations. This had been a workspace for someone in the past to set and work flint into tools, axes arrow and or spear points knife blades and various other cutting edge tools.

I expect it have been used for a long period of time and that long repeated presence was the source of that feeling of familiar connection I found within that shelter. It had been the main focus of someone far in the past for producing the things they needed to survive and thrive in life and the energy of their focus on that work and become a part of that shelter living in the stones and the soil there in so that some part of them would dwell there for ever and that connection could be felt by other that came through the ages with a spirit open enough to feel and accept that presence.

I stood up and stepped away from the work space and passed on out from under the shelter taking care not to disturb in with my passing. I was not my space to impose on, I left all the cores and the chips where they lay still belonging to the person who had placed them there and whos presence still abided with the work . I only carried away the feeling of connection and recognition of that ancient person who worked there and created knowing that the connection I felt allowed a part of them to live on withing me from the presence I felt connect and in a way become part of who I am.

NOTE: The rock shelter pictured is NOT the location where I found the cores and flakes just a random shelter to illustrate the idea.